Tuesday, September 10, 2013

INTJ & life turnings

Okay, I semi-failed at the challenge already.
I started Monday's post Sunday but got bored with it/distracted and found something better to do...

According to this personality test I was supposed to take form the Blogtember challenge I am

First off... I don't really like tests like this.  Why do I have to take a test to find out who I am and what I already know??  I am 100% aware that I am an introvert.  I'm super shy.  I'm not a big talker.  I fear speaking to a large group of people. Don't get me wrong, I like socializing and making new friends but it's kind of terrifying.  Yes, I know I'm a perfectionist, I'm pretty good at thinking things out, yaddayaddayadda.
I tried reading my profile page three separate times but was bored and got distracted each time. 

Sooo, yeah, my feelings on this prompt... meh. next....

Blogtember's Day 6 prompt is to describe a distinct moment when your life took a turn.

Being happy, positive and grateful was never very easy for me. 

I battled with it daily.  I was self-conscious. I put myself down.  I thought the world was against me.
It took one person, one friend, to reach out.  She called me out on my negative actions.

She told me things that she and all my friends felt about me that literally made me cry for hours. Hours. 
It made me realize that I need to 1. stop being a bitch  2. be a better friend and 3. be happy

That conversation changed me but I needed it. Bad.

So how did I stop being so negative?  I changed my attitude.  I changed my perspective on life.  I started loving myself and my life.  I surrounded myself with supportive people, beautiful things and positive words.  I broke down my walls and smiled.  I stopped to smell the roses, enjoy the sunset and cherish my moments.  I started ignoring negative people, words and surroundings.  I lay low on social media (especially facebook). I write down things that make me smile to reread when I'm feeling sad. I have gratitude for everything.  I take no one or thing for granted.  

So do me a favor.  Stop what you're doing right now. Well, wait...finish reading my post and then stop what you're doing.  Look around you. Life. Is. Beautiful.  Okay, you may be in your messy room, or you're thinking, oh...I really need to vacuum or fold the laundry.  But look past that... Are you in a house/apartment/dorm room/library?  That's something to be grateful for. Do you have a pet, spouse, friend around you? That's something to be happy about.  Do you have clothes on your back? Food in your fridge? School or a job to go to?  Be grateful.  Be happy. Be positive.  It's a simple life-altering choice.

Life is beautiful.


  1. Eeek! Like, get out of my head girl! Haha :)

    Well, sort of. I had a sort of similar thing, although it was more of a self-realisation AFTER one of my friends had playfully pointed out that I was so mean. Still working on my negativity though. I might pick up a trick or two from you :)

    1. It was pretty difficult to change at first, but it's so worth it in the end. It's amazing how much happier I am with a little gratitude.

      Thanks for commenting :)

  2. Wow I love the introspection here once again. I love how you find the positives in life and keep everything in perspective. That's a truly beautiful thing. There is beauty everywhere in life. All around us. All we have to do is look...

    p.s. I am kind of having trouble finding a follower button on here. It could be that I'm a tad computer illiterate :)

    1. You're so right. I wish more people were willing to look for that beauty... It could change the world!

      I added some buttons on my sidebar in hopes it would make it easier to follow me.. I'm pretty bad with technology, too!